|A Year of Learning|

Things I’ve learned in the past year:

|It’s okay, to not be okay|
|It’s okay, to cut toxic people out of your life|
|It’s okay, to be happy again|
|It’s okay, to have bad days|
|It’s okay, to go wild with your friends|
|It’s okay, to fail|
|It’s okay, to try again|
|It’s okay, if you don’t like yourself sometimes|
|It’s okay, love yourself|
|It’s okay, to put yourself first|
|It’s okay, to need help|
|It’s okay, to feel pain|
|It’s okay, to be human| Continue reading

|My Two Year Old|

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I went in for my doctor’s appointment on March 27th, 2017 to see how Gabe was growing in my womb. We were 38 weeks along. At that appointment my blood pressure was pretty high and with having gestational diabetes, my doctor didn’t want to take any chances, so we were sent to OB to be induced. I was excited and nervous, however, Gabe was not ready to come and we were sent home two days later, with no baby. I should have known then, that he would have my stubbornness and attitude. I was annoyed and upset, I had went through a couple of days of contractions and no sleep and we were going home with no baby and to top it off the doctor put me on bed rest until Gabe decided to make his appearance. Continue reading

|Find Your Value|

Dear You Are Worth It,

I see you. I’ve seen the pain you have endured over and over again because you’ve put yourself in situations where people do not value you. You deserve so much more. I wish you could see your worth and how special you are. They say that we attract the love, we think we deserve. I want you to know and start to believe, that you deserve the world. You deserve someone who is going to pour into your life and add to it. Not someone who will take and break you down. I wish you could see what I see in you. I wish you could believe in yourself the way I believe in you. You are worth so much and hold so much value.

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|Learning to Heal|

These past two weeks I have done a lot of deep soul searching. I’ve processed through a lot of emotions, wounds, and things about my past that still bother me today and this is the conclusion I’ve come to. I need to step away from my past. There’s a quote by Jeffrey R. Holland, “The past is to be learned from but not lived in.” All to often I let things from my past define what I do in my present. I self sabotage relationships with people because of things that happened in my past. Or I fail to believe healthy and positive things people say to me because of unhealthy and negative comments in my past. Honestly, these two weeks, have been hell and I have had to tell myself enough is enough. Continue reading